He attended college in my hometown, I attended college 6 hours away. He asked me out in the most romantic way albeit cheesy. We went to a mountaintop at night and it was incredibly cold but perfect nonetheless. We a...

He attended college in my hometown, I attended college 6 hours away. He asked me out in the most romantic way albeit cheesy. We went to a mountaintop at night and it was incredibly cold but perfect nonetheless. We agreed to make the distance work and I thought it was going well! After three months, he had a freak out. Some of his friends were getting married and saying he was next. He was scared of our future since we were doing so well and where it would lead. I suggested a break and told him we're young and should take it one day at a time. After an agonizing one day of being on "break", he called me and said he couldn't do it and wanted to be with me. But ever since, something changed with him. He wasn't doing cute or romantic things anymore, stopped sending me letters, and the long sweet texts I would wake up to in my dorm were non-existent. He was distancing himself from me slowly. Fast forward 4 more months and it was even worse. He stopped calling me babe. I felt like we were friends with benefits! We had a physical attraction but all the cute, romantic stuff was DEAD. I couldn't take it anymore. I broke up with him. He said it was just bad timing because of distance but it seemed like he stopped liking me with the sole exception that we were still physical and he was definitely attracted to my physical attributes. I feel angry that I wasted my time with him! He was such a nice guy and still is but when I date a guy, I want it to last. I'm extremely picky and don't date just anyone. I thought he was special and let down my guard with him. He was only my second boyfriend. It hurts to see him. I miss him. Seeing his face still gives me butterflies. I can't wait til I move back to school. Two weeks left of living near him and being miserable not being able to see him. It's a losing battle. I need to get over him!

After reading my Stage 1: Releasing the Negative story, it's great to see how far I've come! Summer is coming to an end and I move back to my college apartment in 12 days. Never been more excited to embrace my new l...

After reading my Stage 1: Releasing the Negative story, it's great to see how far I've come! Summer is coming to an end and I move back to my college apartment in 12 days. Never been more excited to embrace my new life! I'll be rooming with three friends, all who are amazing and are always there for me.

I got a writing internship and although I quit it because the subject is not particularly for me, I know if I got one once, I sure as hell can get another writing internship that I can devote my time to. I also can focus on work and saving money now that I'm not stressed about finding time for my long distance bf. No need to worry about skype or waiting anxiously for his texts. Feels good! I'll also be surrounded by great people and I hope to meet many, many more this year.

I'm just so excited to start my life already. I hardly think about my ex anymore and rarely go to his fb page which says alot. I've also refrained from texting him. I realize it was stupid and I'm definitely ready to move on in that aspect. I still find him incredibly cute but I don't get butterflies for him anymore. Looks like I'm taking a step in the right direction and I'm grateful for that.

I thought I was taking every approach possible to getting my life back on track after the breakup. One last connection remained: we were facebook friends.

He always reiterated how we were friends and h...

I thought I was taking every approach possible to getting my life back on track after the breakup. One last connection remained: we were facebook friends.

He always reiterated how we were friends and how easy for it was for us to be just friends. Umm, maybe for him but for me? Screw that. We're not the same person. And i was still slightly bitter over how oblivious he was to making me feel.

So, I wrote him a civilized, to the point, slightly mean facebook message that felt oh so good, then I deleted him. Felt sooo good!

Now, I feel like i can truly move on. I dyed my hair a lighter color, lost 12 pounds(and hope to keep it off), and got a new clothing style that I love. I feel fresh and brand new and damn it feels good.

I'm even going out more! I'm only in college once, I'm gonna embrace it and enjoy life. I mean, I'm paying all this tuition for it anyways. haha.

Point is, I feel good and happier than when I was with him :)

I'm happy to say that I am over my ex-boyfriend. The anger that I once harbored for him giving me trust issues has dissipated. Sure, I wont be ready for a relationship anytime soon but I'm okay with that. I need a b...

I'm happy to say that I am over my ex-boyfriend. The anger that I once harbored for him giving me trust issues has dissipated. Sure, I wont be ready for a relationship anytime soon but I'm okay with that. I need a break from guys.

At first, I thought i could just casually date guys since I wasn't ready for anything official. Now, I learned that I don't like to date around, even if its just dinner with a potential suitor. I dont enjoy going on casual dates with multiple guys unless I truly want to be in a monogamous relationship with him. It puts too much strain on me. I dont mind taking a break from guys or even choosing one guy to date casually. I'm young, only 19 years old. I like to think I'm mature for my age and I know through heartbreak what I want for myself. I want the next relationship to last, really mean something. So, I'm going to enjoy life/college, continue to surround myself with my amazing friends, and embrace everything wholeheartedly.

On a sidenote, I heard from a friend that my ex-boyfriend has gone downhill since I broke up with him. He no longer talks to friends and has become a recluse. Before I was over him, I would have found pleasure knowing that he's getting his "just desserts" for treating me so badly. Now, I just feel sorry for him. I know I can no longer be friends with him and I'm okay with that.

I'm ready to leave that part of my life in the past and explore my new options with open eyes :)